He Has Never Left

In this waiting time, I review in my head exactly what I believe. I say that God loves me, but do I believe it? Most of the time I do. I say that God hears my prayers, but do I believe it? Most of the time I do. I say that God knows my need, but do I believe it? Most of the time I do.

Most of the time I do. But what about those times when I don’t? God has said in His word, that we can move mountains with just the faith of a mustard seed. Do you know how small a mustard seed is? It’s so, very tiny. It’s smaller than a cherry pit. It’s smaller than a peppercorn.  It’s maybe about the size of a head of a pin. You know, those straight pins people use to sew with? All I need is a tiny, amount of faith. I keep wondering when I feel like God has deserted me, how much faith do I have? Is it as much as the head of a pin?

So I have taken up a practice to help me in this time. I need to remember. I need to remember all those times God has blessed me and answered my prayers. I began to go back in my memory and pull those times from there. As I do, the doubt begins to fade away. The fear begins to wash away. What a blessing.

God has answered my prayers. Time and time again, He has been faithful to me – faithless me. We sang a song in church today and one of the lines in it is, “I am who You say I am.” The song goes on to explain how we are loved and cared for.

I can’t bank on my own faith. I have to bank on God’s character. My faith is wishy-washy, at times. And that’s what God tells me in His word. To cast our cares upon Him, for He cares for us. He doesn’t ask me to put my faith in myself. That’s just foolish. He asks me to put my faith in Him and He will provide.

In walking this life with God, in times like these, I have to remember. I need to remember God’s character. I need to remember all the times He has provided for me and answered my prayers.

And so far, as I look back on my life I haven’t found one time that God has been faithless to me. I can’t find anytime in my memory bank, that God has let me down or hurt me. Hindsight is twenty/twenty, and there are plenty of times I didn’t understand what God was doing. But He is true to His word. He loves me. He knows my need, and He’s heard my prayers. I don’t think this is the one time he’s going to leave me high and dry. He never violates His character or His word. So since He has never left me or forsaken me, I will hang on during this waiting time and remind myself of what God has done.

I posted a picture of a bird, at the top of this post because it reminds me how God cares for the little bird, how much more will He care for me.