Look At The Birds!

I have been struggling a lot lately. I’ve kept it to myself (well you know now). This is my last year homeschooling. I’m at a crossroads. I’m not quite sure of what I’m going to be when I grow up. I used to know, but then this whole homeschooling gig changed things drastically.

In the process of thinking about what I’m going to do, I think about what my kids are going to do. Are we going to be able to pay for a private college for my son? How will we do that? My daughter is leaving for England soon. She’ll be in another country for three months. Will she be okay?

I’m usually not a worrier, but in my older age, I find myself worrying much more than I ever did. That frustrates me too. I’m in that “wonderful” stage of my body changing. The hormones make me feel crazy.

So, though, I have been struggling, I just carry on, doing the things that need to get done, and secretly wishing the rapture would happen so I could jet on out of here and not worry about all the things I’ve been worrying about.

The other day the Lord sent me a messenger, to remind me that He is still here and He still loves me and I’m not supposed to worry. I was sitting outside a school, waiting for my son to come out of class. He’s taking a college class this semester. I had the car still running, figuring he should be out any moment. While I sat there, a bird flew down and landed on the side mirror of my car and just looked inside the car at me. The car was running, but he wasn’t afraid. I have been driving for 34 years of my life and I’ve never had a bird come and sit on my side mirror and look inside my car. Never!

I’ve never seen a bird like this before. He was bigger than the little brown chickadees I see flying around our neighborhood. He had bright blue stripes on either side of him. He had big brown eyes and he was completely unafraid.

I told him hello. He kept looking at me like, “Do you understand what’s going on here?” He stayed there for at least a minute, until I got a good look at him. He seemed to be saying, “Have you received the message yet?” He finally flew off, just before my son arrived. I was a little distracted by my son getting in the car, and asking him how class was, that I didn’t think about the message of the bird yet.

Then, halfway home, I told my son about the bird. As I did, I realized, that bird was sent to me to encourage me. I know some of you may be saying, “Oh, c’mon you’re reading a little too much into this.” But I don’t think I am. God knows my every thought. God knows all my struggles and worries. He knows that one of my favorite scriptures is in Matthew when God says to look at the birds, how He clothes them and feeds them. How much more will He care for us? When I thought of that bird, it gave me so much encouragement. It’s lifted me up throughout the whole week.

God is good all the time. Not some of the time, or once in awhile, it’s ALL the time. He knows His children intimately. He wants to care for us, just like He says in His Word. If you’re feeling down or going through a struggle, wait and God will send you encouragement that fits you exactly.

Matthew 6:26 “Look at the birds of the air. They do not sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?”