While I Fretted

I have talked a lot about the waiting time. I’ve shared my ups and downs, while I waited on God to answer my prayers. I’ve had good days and bad days. And I am sorry to say, I had many bad days, where I clearly doubted God. I wrote about it several times.

While I fretted, God was working on me. His love never stopped. He heard all my prayers. He sent me reminders, over and over again to tell me who He is and remind me how He operates.

While I fretted, He kept calling me back to Himself. He kept telling me over and over that He hadn’t forgotten me. Sometimes I listened and other times, I fretted more.

I knew I would feel this way. Deep down in my soul, I knew God was going to take care of me. And I knew I would regret all my fretting and doubt. I knew I would. But did that stop me from fretting? Regretfully no.

Why is it, we can be a Christian for so long. We can look back on our lives and see God’s fingerprints all over and yet, when we walk through the valley, we forget.

I’ve been a Christian for a long time. I’ve trusted God for so many things. He has been faithful to faithless me over and over again. He has never let me down. Yet when pressure comes, I doubt. I don’t say that proudly. It takes longer for the doubt to come in, but it seems to eventually make its way into my brain.

For those of you who have followed my blog, God has answered my prayers. The waiting time is over. I have a way to make money to help pay my son’s college tuition.

I want to share with you. All of us will go through a waiting time. If not now, later. It’s just par for the course. We as believers WILL have difficult times. We will spend time crying out to God and waiting, waiting for Him to answer. And then we will have a break and then it will happen again. Jesus told us our lives will be like this. A constant crying out to Him, and then waiting for His answer.

Save yourself some grief. If you are a believer, God will answer your prayers. He does love you. He won’t leave you high and dry. He won’t forget about you like I have done by forgetting to turn off the stove and are reminded that I have done so, when the smoke billows out of the kitchen. God doesn’t forget. There aren’t too many things and people for Him to think about, that you will slip through the cracks. He doesn’t forget anybody.

So don’t be like me and regret your doubt of God. God is the same today, yesterday and tomorrow. He will never forget you or stop loving you. Don’t fret.